Who am I?
What do I do?
Where is that I am going?
Why is this so hard?
These are question I ask myself on a daily. and I have yet to figure out a single one. Life is forever a conundrum to me.
I am trying to be optimistic and just go with the flow. I fear that I will fail, but I know that failure is a given and it will help me grow in the end. But I can’t help but fear it because I know that it feels horrible.
I learned that I worry too much, and that I need to trust in myself and my capabilities. I realized that I am young and my life isn’t necessary going to be over if I make mistakes. I also learned that the only thing stopping me from doing the things I want is me. I know that I have to fight harder and not just let every little thing put me down.
I think that I need to change my outlook on life completely. I want it to be more positive and fluid. In stead of seeing things as obstacles, I want to see them as challenges.
I leave this here knowing that it’s still only the beginning.